1.Who are you when im not looking by Blake Shelton
2. Beer in Mexico by Kenny Chesney
Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Damn you family drama
Ever since my car accident, my parents have been bickering non-stop. Its over money which is never something they get mad about. My Mother simply asked for some help from my Father because she didnt want to carry the full burden. What did he do? He lashed out at my Mother with all this shit from the past that didnt have anything to do with what was going on now. He used everything he could against my mom when he simply could have said, "I dont have the money right now."
My mom being my super hero in the time of need, was the bigger person and called back to tell my dad that she was sorry for anything that my dad was still holding in from the past. She made a deal with him that if I did a minimum of 6 applications a week, he would give me gas for my car. She was again sucessful and 10 applications later, I still don't see any money for gas.
Dont give up on life,
<3 Panders
My mom being my super hero in the time of need, was the bigger person and called back to tell my dad that she was sorry for anything that my dad was still holding in from the past. She made a deal with him that if I did a minimum of 6 applications a week, he would give me gas for my car. She was again sucessful and 10 applications later, I still don't see any money for gas.
Dont give up on life,
<3 Panders
Thursday, January 27, 2011
You are...
You are... The cheese to my macaroni
You are... The horizon to my sky
You are... The bacon to my eggs
You are... The laces to my sneakers
You are... The jelly to my peanut butter
You are... The smile to my face
You are... The gravy to my mashed potatoes
You are... The bubbles to my bath
You are... The milk to my cookie
You are... The ink to my pen
You are... The ketchup to my french fries
You are... The water to my ocean
You are... The icing on my cupcake
(Love, Now and Forever)
Gra anois agus go deo,
Panders <3
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Watching my life pass before my eyes
Just yesterday I was in a car accident. I say it like I was telling someone that I went to the store... I never thought the words " I got into a car accident" would ever come out of my mouth. You know when your to old to drive, when you pull out of the parking lot and dont notice that I am right there. I am still thanking God everyday that I wake up that we both are okay. I thank God for my mother for helping me through all of this and luckily found me a new car today, bought it, and paid for the fixing that it severely needed. I pray to God that my trauma doesnt make my driving suffer and I can move on with my life.
Sorry for the short entry, homework doesnt do itself! Thanks for reading,
Panders <3
Sorry for the short entry, homework doesnt do itself! Thanks for reading,
Panders <3
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Im trying...
When I think everything is going just great in my life, something all of a sudden goes wrong... I get a flat tire! I have no job to fix it, my mom is not talking to me or helping me with my situation.. I hate this grown up shit! Its sucks like hell and I dont want it anymore. I liked it when I was younger and if something got scary I was able to go to my parents.. Now they only talk when I need something that doesnt cost money.. I am looking and looking for jobs, and no one wants me because of my lack of experience. I am sorry job world that I was not number one in my class, or I didnt do all the other activities in high school.. I dont have certificates or licenses to do anything!
I applied to Subway and I called and called and called and called!! You know what I am getting at! They never ever answered my damn phone calls! Made me feel lower than shit! I cant even get a place that I applied to, to talk to me! I am in school full time and I am trying my best to find work... I am just panicking over time, and I cant seem to get my head on straight!
I don't understand when people who have a job complain about SO DAMN MUCH! At least you have some form of work! At least you go to bed at night knowing you will be able to afford SOMETHING! Rather than nothing... People who are employed, and they HATE their job need to sit back and think about it for a sec.. If you didnt have that job, you wouldnt be able to put gas in your car etc... To all the people who bitch and complain that their job sucks, well then quit! There are millions of people like me who are willing to do the work, just to get a little something to save themselves..
If you are currently unemployed I am praying for you hard! If you are currently employed I am praying that you get a better attitude about your work and that you realize your blessed in this economy. If anyone has any suggestions on where I can find work, that would be GREAT!
Love you all
<3 Panders
I applied to Subway and I called and called and called and called!! You know what I am getting at! They never ever answered my damn phone calls! Made me feel lower than shit! I cant even get a place that I applied to, to talk to me! I am in school full time and I am trying my best to find work... I am just panicking over time, and I cant seem to get my head on straight!
I don't understand when people who have a job complain about SO DAMN MUCH! At least you have some form of work! At least you go to bed at night knowing you will be able to afford SOMETHING! Rather than nothing... People who are employed, and they HATE their job need to sit back and think about it for a sec.. If you didnt have that job, you wouldnt be able to put gas in your car etc... To all the people who bitch and complain that their job sucks, well then quit! There are millions of people like me who are willing to do the work, just to get a little something to save themselves..
If you are currently unemployed I am praying for you hard! If you are currently employed I am praying that you get a better attitude about your work and that you realize your blessed in this economy. If anyone has any suggestions on where I can find work, that would be GREAT!
Love you all
<3 Panders
Monday, January 17, 2011
The most functional word in the English language.
Well, it's shit... That's right, shit!
Shit may just be the most funtional word
in the english language.
Consider, you can get shit-faced, be shit-out-of-luck, or
have shit for brains, with a little effort, you can get your
shit together, find a place for your shit, or be asked
to shit or get off the pot.
You can smoke shit, buy shit, sell shit, lose shit,
find shit, forget shit, or tell others to eat shit.
Some people know their shit, while others can't tell
the difference between shit and shineola.
There are lucky shits, dumb shits, and crazy shits.
There is bull shit, horse shit, and chicken shit.
You can throw shit, sling shit, catch shit,
shoot the shit or duck when the shit hits the fan.
You can give a shit or serve shit on a shingle. You can find
yourself in deep shit or be happier than a pig in shit.
Some days are colder than shit. Some days are hotter
than shit, and some days are just plain shitty.
Some music sounds like shit. Things can look
like shit, and there are times when you feel like shit.
Just wanted you to know that I do give a shit, and I hope you
have a nice day without a bunch of shit. But if you happen
to catch a load of shit from some shit-head.
Well, shit happens.
This poster in my room gets me through!
Love y'all!
Panders
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Facebook... you SUCK
When I was in my pre-teens I felt like I was never going to have someone who wanted to love me. I always told my parents that I was never talking to people online, and I was never going on to sites where I was not allowed to go. I was the pre-teen who thought nothing bad was ever going to happen, and if something bad happened I was tough enough to handle it... I never had any self-esteem til I met this person in a christian chat room... He was from a different country and was having a hard time ffinding God. We connected and started a long distance relationship. My mom caught me when I started calling him, and dumb pre-teen me didnt know the phone bill would show where I was calling too, and that the phone bill was $300 more than usual. She called the number I had been dialing and let this person know that I was under age and if he ever did anything she would have the cops all over his ass. I cried and did that whole pre-teen fit and said your ruining my life and so on.. But it didnt stop me.. Now I was living a double life, I never wanted to go out because I had to get to the computer on time to chat with him before he went to bed because of the time difference and so on... I was loosing touch with all my friends, not sharing anything with them because I knew they would make fun of me... As soon as I got to high school though my life suddenly changed... I wasent talking so much to this person online, I knew I was never going to see this person in my entire life and I wanted something better. I met a friend who today is my wonderful boyfriend and he saved my life from everything. I grew up and acted more mature than ever. Then it came time to tell this person who I left in the dust online that I never wanted to speak to him again. That I was going to grow up and stop this online/not safe chatting thing... This person was not having it, he became mad and never talked to me again.. This is what brings me to facebook...
Mind you this happened more than 11-12 years ago, and just up til 4 months ago this person who I had chatted with online made a profile of me on facebook, tried to steal my friends and take over my life...
I no longer have a facebook due to the fact that it is not safe anymore. Not safe for me, my friends, or my family... I wish the people of facebook would get their heads out of their asses and help people who are being attacked on facebook. I wish I never had to get rid of my facebook, but I was NOT going to be stepped on anymore. I never thought my past would come back to bite me in the ass, but it did and I have to deal with it like an adult now, which is very very new to me. I took the precautions once I joined facebook, but there was this person from my past who thought he could take over my name, and my face! And then take my friends... I was being attacked and facebook wouldnt do a damn thing! I hate the fact no matter how many times you or your friends block a person or report a person on facebook... It never gets taken care of! When I went to "deactivate" my account, facebook asked why! I said it was not safe, and they said to adjust my privacy/safety settings... This was damage to my life, and my safety was more than just what can my friends see and not see... I made sure I erased everything about me on facebook, so this person who was trying to be me could not get to my friends. This person was playing a sick game that I didnt want no part of...
In these last couple of years, I have really changed and grown up. I have used facebook to connect with old friends and new ones, not even thinking that someone someday would use information that I have shared against me...
To everyone who reads this, or if you stumble upon this blog just know that anywhere and everywhere you go online, you are not safe... You are not protected when they say you are. Never ever EVER give anything away about yourself. I know I sound like your parent, but trust me I know what it is like. I never listened to my mother, about being safe on the internet when I was younger and now I my past is coming back to haunt me.
I want nothing but safety to everyone, I have had to deal with my past actions, and I am making sure the actions I take today are the safest ones. I hope sharing my story has made it easier for you as parents to really talk to your kids, or as teens to watch what you say or do on the internet. Dont get sucked up into cyber bullying like I did because places like facebook are not going to help you, just like they didnt help me..
And another thing, I know I am not the best when it comes to grammar and punctuation so please excuse all the mistakes in my writing. I was and am more worried about getting my story onto my blog than if I used correct punctuation..
Love and God Bless!!
Panders
Mind you this happened more than 11-12 years ago, and just up til 4 months ago this person who I had chatted with online made a profile of me on facebook, tried to steal my friends and take over my life...
I no longer have a facebook due to the fact that it is not safe anymore. Not safe for me, my friends, or my family... I wish the people of facebook would get their heads out of their asses and help people who are being attacked on facebook. I wish I never had to get rid of my facebook, but I was NOT going to be stepped on anymore. I never thought my past would come back to bite me in the ass, but it did and I have to deal with it like an adult now, which is very very new to me. I took the precautions once I joined facebook, but there was this person from my past who thought he could take over my name, and my face! And then take my friends... I was being attacked and facebook wouldnt do a damn thing! I hate the fact no matter how many times you or your friends block a person or report a person on facebook... It never gets taken care of! When I went to "deactivate" my account, facebook asked why! I said it was not safe, and they said to adjust my privacy/safety settings... This was damage to my life, and my safety was more than just what can my friends see and not see... I made sure I erased everything about me on facebook, so this person who was trying to be me could not get to my friends. This person was playing a sick game that I didnt want no part of...
In these last couple of years, I have really changed and grown up. I have used facebook to connect with old friends and new ones, not even thinking that someone someday would use information that I have shared against me...
To everyone who reads this, or if you stumble upon this blog just know that anywhere and everywhere you go online, you are not safe... You are not protected when they say you are. Never ever EVER give anything away about yourself. I know I sound like your parent, but trust me I know what it is like. I never listened to my mother, about being safe on the internet when I was younger and now I my past is coming back to haunt me.
I want nothing but safety to everyone, I have had to deal with my past actions, and I am making sure the actions I take today are the safest ones. I hope sharing my story has made it easier for you as parents to really talk to your kids, or as teens to watch what you say or do on the internet. Dont get sucked up into cyber bullying like I did because places like facebook are not going to help you, just like they didnt help me..
And another thing, I know I am not the best when it comes to grammar and punctuation so please excuse all the mistakes in my writing. I was and am more worried about getting my story onto my blog than if I used correct punctuation..
Love and God Bless!!
Panders
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